Beck, my dear friend, do other hungers really ever go away?
You eat a Thanksgiving Feast and a few hours later, what do you want? More food. Another piece of pie. Maybe a cold turkey sandwich. (pun intended)
You attend the symphony or an engaging play or a great ball game. And what happens a few days or weeks or months later? You want more music, more drama, more sports.
You buy a fast new computer, or a new car, or a new suit. It's wonderful at first. Then in a while the computer doesn't seem all that fast any more. The car loses the new car smell. The new suit becomes just a suit. And eventually you hunger again for new technology or attire.
At least I do. So...
Just when I think I've accepted my MOM relationship, I find there's some new wrinkle, or some old one that returns.
Just when I think, I've got it pretty good, something comes along to show me that while I am blessed, I am also greatly challenged.
Just when I think I can swim fluently, I don't breathe right on a flip turn and a little water goes up my nose.
So yes, I relate to your hunger that never goes away. I feel it too. I do an innocent online chat with an old buddy, and pretty soon all I can think about is being in his arms.
But I also realize that most everything in life ebbs and flows. The rain--I hope, I pray, I imagine--will eventually give way to sunshine. Hey I live in Salt Lake not Seattle. And then after a while it will be too hot and I'll long for cool rainy days like today.
I have no answers. But I'm grateful for the way you pose questions. And I'm grateful for your friendship. Maybe our satisfaction in life relates more to the challenge of asking unanswerable questions rather than ease of finding questionable answers.
What do you think, Beck?
You are right. It does ebb and flow. Comparing this hunger to other appetites or desires, however, is somewhat problematic. My other hungers I can satisfy, appease, or indulge but not this one. Most of the time, I'm okay with that. I have a good life and am part of something special. But every once in awhile I just feel empty inside because I cannot satisfy this hunger.
ReplyDelete"I have a good life and am part of something special. But every once in awhile I just feel empty inside because I cannot satisfy this hunger..."
ReplyDeleteCrisco said it exactly and to the point. His accuracy of recognizing the "good life" and "something special", while feeling "empty inside" sums it up!